The jury’s duty may be over, but the memories are still in session.

In the summer of 2011, millions of Americans were glued to their televisions when seven women and five men were sworn in as jurors and later determined the fate of Casey Anthony.

For almost two months, prosecutors tried to prove beyond doubt that Casey was responsible for the murder of her 2-year-old daughter Caylee Anthony. After 33 days of testifying, the jury finally voted not to convict.

While many held back after the controversial verdict, a male jury member speaks to People and regrets his decision.

“My decision haunts me to this day,” he told the publication. “I think now if I did it again I would try harder to convict her on one of the lesser charges like homicide. At least that. Or child abuse. I didn’t know what the hell I was doing and I got myself not used for what I believed in back then. “