Sure, she could be a two-time Grammy nominee, Super Bowl headliner, inauguration performer, and natural beauty (with her own line of cosmetics, nothing less). But that does not mean Jennifer Lopez has always loved each other.

In fact, on January 22nd, J.Lo showed in a new #CoachConversations video how she hasn’t felt good in previous relationships.

Talk to the purpose coach Jay ShettyJennifer revealed, “I remember going through therapy at the beginning, you know, kind of in my late 30s, and there was a lot of talk about loving yourself and I was like, ‘I love myself.'”

She continued, “But obviously I’ve done all of these things in my personal relationships that didn’t look like I loved myself, but I didn’t even get the concept. It took time and it’s a journey and it is still a journey for me. “

So which ex was she referring to? Well, J. Lo, now 51 years old, was married to Marc Anthony from 2004 to 2014.