The 32-year-old athlete remembered wanting so badly to be with someone, but some things just weren’t meant to last.

“I got so numb, I just felt cold and numb as I felt where nothing would phase me, and I remember sitting and praying: I just want to feel again, I want to fight again, I am tired of going through things you know you are alone, “he shared. “And then you have these ideas about how things should go, what you will stand for, what you will endure, what you want from a relationship, what you want from love. And if you really want it, that s – t out go to the king’s window. “

“The smallest thing can cut you the deepest, and I think about this year just with everything that happened,” he continued, “and pretend everything is fine but f – k, we all go through it and I think the biggest thing is knowing that’s okay. And you can’t do everything, you can’t be everything to everyone. “

Dale said he wanted to go on IG Live to show his followers that “this is real”.

“The things that people go through are real,” he explained. “To understand what I learned in this situation … Even if you feel bad, it will get better. I think a lot about what I wanted from myself in life. What I wanted before and how things were this year Changed so much. I just feel destroyed and I thought the things that would make me feel better, the things that I thought I would feel better about, ended up feeling worse. “